I hate that empty stomach feeling you get when you're feeling sad.

This current situation is so frustrating. I love him.
Living together right now must be HORRIBLE for him, but he's the one that asked me to live with him, he's the one that says "you're the apedamey of everything he's looked for in another person" "If I was going to be with anyone right now, I'd be with you" I'm not sure if I believe him. I have this feeling in the back of my mind that he's just waiting for me to leave so he can hook up with Dani and have her send the night and move on from me quickly.

My mom says "Meredith, look at for number one right now. Take care of yourself" It's hard, I want to make things good with Jon but that shouldn't be my concern right now. I need to move on.

This semester will be interesting. I want to get involved and join clubs and just hang out with friends all the time. Dating others? I don't know, if Jon starts dating someone else that'll help me to get up & start dating

Weeeeeaaaakkk.

I'll be home in Greenville Thursday night or Friday. THANK GOODNESS!!

MAT