| (no subject) |
[May. 2nd, 2009|12:07 pm] |
|
I miss my computer... summer yet? |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 8th, 2009|08:16 pm] |
I'm SUCKING at school right now.
anddd I can't find a reason to care at the moment. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2009|11:14 pm] |
I'm going to do this! (...after spring break and when I find a good place to get it done)
 |
|
|
| Summerrrr is almost overrrr |
[Aug. 15th, 2008|01:29 pm] |
This time next week, I'll be getting ready to leave for Charleston :0)
I can't believe it came so soon.
I'm not studying abroad anymore. Yes, after talking/planning to study somewhere for two years, I decided not too. Perhaps a summer program but a semester is too expensive anddd I have to do psychological research and counseling this year :0) I feel fine about it now.
I'm sad that I'm leaving some (most) of my favorite people again. I honestly have no idea what my life would have been without them this summer :0)
I'm ready for schooooool (new classes) and finally (haha) having my own room :0)
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 4th, 2008|09:22 am] |
"little things you said or did are part of me, come out from time to time.
probably no one I know now would notice.
But i never thought so much could change."
Oh Ben Folds...
My sisters are coming down to Charleston for the weekend :0) Celebrate (til I puke probably)!!
Times are interesting.
I wish no one was dating anyone.
Let's all be friendsssss.
I miss it.
MAT |
|
|
| alas... |
[Jan. 6th, 2008|01:26 am] |
One of the weirdest times in my life.
I'm questioning & reviewing everything... which is hard but necessary.
I have a good feeling about 2008.
Going to make the best of what's around etc.
I have a lot of work to do. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2007|11:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
ugh.
I hate this feeling.
go away.
I miss the boy like crazy.
I had my iPod on shuffle for Ben Folds today and low and behold...The Luckiest came on.
(One of my most romantic memories with him was with that song & it was kind of "our" song)
I was studying with Dylan and I just started crying. I felt like an emotional loser, I walked off and gathered myself up and went back to "studying".
I've distracted by this situation a lot lately.
If I don't know if I should be with someone than I probably shouldn't be with them...correct?
I can't just let my best friend after four years go as if it doesn't bother the fuck out of me.
I wish things were like a year ago. So happy. In love.
Welp, I'm lame.
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|06:59 am] |
How do you know if you're making a huge mistake?
I've been de-friended online and all ties between have been attempted to be cut. He can't be friends. Our relationship was pretty simple. Over the past four years, maybe 10 or so fights, MAYBE. We cry and laugh at the same time. He's my boob-a-la. I can't regret this. Lame, my eyes are swollen & I have a test in an hour.
MAT |
|
|
| yikes... |
[Sep. 5th, 2007|12:22 pm] |
Well, I've been doing pretty well lately I'd say.
HOWEVER! there is so much going on, I'm feeling a little...I can't even think of a word for it.
My parents are moving to GA...in about two months I think. So I'll be coming "home" to a place I don't know. But it's all good because I probably won't live at home anymore and it's a good opportunity for my mom. So good for them but weird feeling for me. I'm going to have to stay with people to go to Greenville.
I want to be single and just not be interested in anyone. I need to find myself without anyone else's presence influencing me. I want to be a fully independent person, so I'm working on that.
Jon called me yesterday really upset and almost crying. I said I was sorry that he's having a rough time, etc. Then he came and got something from me today and was really upset looking and asked to hang out but I really am busy the next couple of days. Thursday I'm going to be in class all day and then hopefully I'll get some studying done that night. Then Friday, I'm not sure what's going on, I MIGHT go to the beach since I haven't been yet?!?! crazy I know. Saturday I'm hanging out with Daniel all day and such...that'll be fun and interesting. Sunday I need to study more for my two psychology classes that have tests next week and read for Brazilian Films.
I like being busy but it's a little annoying too at times. I need to get a job but I don't want one. I think I'm going to wait a couple weeks and then start looking. Hopefully I can host or serve somewhere and then perhaps keep that job this summer...we'll see.
I feel like nothing is stable in life right now. but that is life.
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Aug. 14th, 2007|02:14 pm] |
It's been a while.
Things are looking up.
Jon and I are talking and not disliking/hating each other at all. I still love him but I know we shouldn't be together. Hopefully we can continue to be friends since we are so close already. It's just a weird time in life right now. I'm really looking forward to school but I'm so anxious about roommates, the school work...just everything. I'm pretty content with things right now. I haven't seen Jon in two weeks and yes I miss him but it makes it a lot easier to feel better about this situation.
Well, here's to the single life. long time, no see. Gotta pick up where I left it back in FRESHMAN year of high school.
p.s. I love my friends and can't wait to make more this year :0)
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|09:18 pm] |
I can't believe I put myself in this situation. Letting myself live with Jon in HIS apartment, I put too much I don't know if the word is trust but I put too much on the line for this situation.
I love him. I think it's my emotions making me irrational. I don't think he likes Dani but then again, I don't know. I'd like to think we could back together after a certain amount of time...but I don't know what this is going to be like.
The unknown sure is terrifying.
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|09:30 am] |
I hate that empty stomach feeling you get when you're feeling sad.
This current situation is so frustrating. I love him.
Living together right now must be HORRIBLE for him, but he's the one that asked me to live with him, he's the one that says "you're the apedamey of everything he's looked for in another person" "If I was going to be with anyone right now, I'd be with you" I'm not sure if I believe him. I have this feeling in the back of my mind that he's just waiting for me to leave so he can hook up with Dani and have her send the night and move on from me quickly.
My mom says "Meredith, look at for number one right now. Take care of yourself" It's hard, I want to make things good with Jon but that shouldn't be my concern right now. I need to move on.
This semester will be interesting. I want to get involved and join clubs and just hang out with friends all the time. Dating others? I don't know, if Jon starts dating someone else that'll help me to get up & start dating
Weeeeeaaaakkk.
I'll be home in Greenville Thursday night or Friday. THANK GOODNESS!!
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 19th, 2007|09:02 am] |
Well Jon and I are broken up.
I still have two weeks of work left so I'll be staying with my ex-boyfriend until then.
Our four year anniversary would be next Friday.
No more going to Philly/Boston for us.
What a shity shity shity shit situation.
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
|
Yeah, I do miss Greenville, SC. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 30th, 2007|03:56 pm] |
Last day of April...first day of summer!!
MAT
wooooo |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 9th, 2007|08:36 pm] |
Couldn't be happier...
my LAST biology lab is tomorrow!!
MAT |
|
|
| It's my birthday |
[Apr. 1st, 2007|04:07 pm] |
and I'm 20.
wooo?
I'm old. But not really, I'm just not a teenagers anymore, which is crazzzzy to me!
So last night was SO much fun. Well this weekend was, but last night Harkins, Jon and my housemate Caitlin and I went to the Drive By Truckers show and it was GREAT! My first time at the Music Farm was a success. Then came back to the house, ordered pizza (of course because we're in college) then I spent the night at Jon's, didn't get to bed until 5:30ish. I don't know, it was just drama free and I really enjoy evenings and weekends like that. Jon's taking me out to eat tonight too...he's such a fabulous boyfriend, eeee.
Anyway this was kind of pointless but I was avoiding my homework sooo...now I shower and avoid it more.
MAT |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 25th, 2007|09:15 pm] |
Man, this stupid Grey's Anatomy thing on ABC.com where you can watch an episode that you missed isnt working. I don't even care about that show that much, I just want some mindless entertainment, but oh wells....
big abnormal psychology test on Tuesday, actually our last one before the final exam...so if i don't get an A, I don't see myself getting an A in that class. MAN! I want a strong major GPA but it's going to be HARD!
I've been doing a lot of stuff for the future, going to talk to a professor about industrial psychology and graduate school, talking to study abroad people (which made me SO excited, even if it's a year from now-ish) My goal is to not be afraid b/c I am scared about it. Out of the country (never done), completely without anyone I know (never done), ohhhhh scared and excited. I really want to try and stay a couple weeks or so after school is done over there. They finish in Mid March over there for most of the school, so yeah....I really wanted Jon to come over after he is done with school and then we can go places in Europe, but I doubt it'll happen, although I can't think of anything I'd rather do.
Things in general have been going alright. School is ending :0), still have to study a lot, Jon's great, sisters' are going well, and parents, uhh anyway...summer's almost here and now I'm going to study more so I can REALLY enjoy the summer times!
MAT |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
matrevino's journal